Sideways on the hill

I say this with the upmost truth as I have come to know it to be:

WE ARE ALL BROKEN

Every single one of us can think of a time we've had our heart broken, you can still feel the twinge of pain right? Yes every situation is different but the pain is the same. Through this last year of being single I have acquired my best friends and they taught me the hardest yet best lesson.

We get to choose how the pain affects us.

Believe there was a time when I would've hated someone for saying this. How cliche right?  Fast forward to now - pride ridden or attempting to be - I believe this statement to be vitally true.
I'm not saying don't be sad, but after watching many friends battle with depression and realizing that I myself was also I wanted to break the cycle. Depression will steal your life and your loved ones life.
I learned that hearts can be healed through the Lord, it doesn't happen overnight thankfully his peace is abounding. You can only take so many sleepless night before your body begins to revolt against you. And let me tell you, single at 29 I need my body to cooperate!
It's also okay to be angry for a while just remember who you're mad at. Do not become a snapping turtle.... snap and hermit. I existed in that circle for several years. Its lonely and pointless.  If you do find yourself in this, the best advice I can give is to get outside. I swear!! Nature works wonders, tell me two squirrels chasing each other doesn't make you smile. I'll wait.
Honestly, I just dont want the enemy staeling or lying to the people I love anymore. During a recent sermon I heard, the pastor asked a very simple question:

How does Satan keep tricking you?
Seems kind of silly but think about it? For me the answer was so blatantly clear I just had never thought about it. Once you begin to recognize patterns through healing (which I say again is not always easy) you can begin to deny the enemies lies. I believed his lies for 28 years because I thought they were truths, I'm ugly, stupid, dirty and a drunk. Why change now no one will ever love you.Well guess what Jesus does and NOTHING can top that. So remember you'll always be broken, we're human but keep fighting through it and knowing with all your heart that Jesus has your back even when you lay alone night after night........... oh sorry lol. I'm just kidding, I trust his plan but I do admit to being impatient.

Sidenote:
I've been on a Mad Men binge and I'm completely obssesed. I apologize now if I begin to use outdtaed terms such as swell..... its  not my fault, it's Don Draper.